Where is the Love?

It has been just over a year and 2 months since I wrote about who I was not saved. It has been a hard time since as I slide in and out of sin. I just got done watching "Fireproof." I think it is a little weird since I am not even close to know what marriage is about. I watched it to see the gospel. What I got was a glimpse of my single life. I have been dealing with a couple of sins that have taken a toll on my life. The first one, I want to talk about is this thing called love. If a recent debate, this post-modern Christian said that we love God first, then self, and finally the world/neighbors. I noticed that this is completely wrong. I was talking to a good friend about a group that I was part of. He said that everything has changed, they have lost the love. After reading "Why We're Not Emergent: By Two Guys Who Should Be" I told me to study Revelation 2:1-7. I also told someone else to study the same and present it. So I decided to study it also. What I found that I have also become the Church of Ephesus. What I found in my lonely life was a feeble man isolated from the world. A man that did love people enough to tell them the Gospel still afraid of men. I have become a very bright knowledge man about God but have not put the characteristics of God into practice. I have not loved. I get into debates with post-modern Christians and in my self-righteousness it seems that I am more-righteous then thou attitude. I loved myself and not God. I treated him as if he was not a Christian before knowing him. Even if his love God, then self, and finally neighbors is wrong, does not make him not in God. He just not understanding. God does not want you to love yourself. He wants to love your neighbors like you love yourself. When you are hungry, you feed yourself, so when your neighbors are hungry feed them. If you are out in the rain you find shelter, help you neighbors find shelter when rain falls on them. I can find someone that is wrong in their theology, like the Church of Ephesus, but like what Paul says if you do it and have not love, it is nothing (1st Corinthians 13:2-3). Utlmatly, it is love for God that is what the Ephesians were missing. That love for Christ is what allows us to love everyone else more than us. So as I try to find the love of God for my life, I will encourage everyone else to find the love of God in their life.

Being a Christian at Work.

This post is more for me than anything. I have notice in my life as a crew chief, that I have not been living up to a subpar level as a Christian at the work place. I am quick to judge people (not on salvation) for their mistakes when possible it was not them, I complain about people behind their back, and I do not show the joy that I have in my life with Christ. In light of this, my section chiefs have wanted me to act more like a Staff Sargent (SSgt) since I am now a Senior Airmen (Sra). Be more of a leader. I am try to figure all this out. I am trying to be more confronting when I see a problem and find more info. A bad example would have been this morning. I accused a SSgt of not finishing forms for a wash. I was upset that he did not do what I told that needed to be done. When I confronted him about it, he exampled that he wanted are truck driver to drop me off so the forms would get done. I was mad at him because our truck driver would not take me to him because he also was mad to him (for other reasons). That was not very Christian of me and a make against my testimony for Christ. Now since I have seen my problem, with God's grace, I am going to change my attitude to reflect more of my Christian beliefs. Please pray that by God's grace I can live more like his Son at work.

Also I want to share that at my last TDY, I was less then Christian as I had to much alchole by my standard. I do not drink much so I do not know how drunk I was but I did have a headache when I stop drink and started to drink water and eat gyros (real gyros). Just wanted everyone to know so that they will pray for when I go TDY again.

Later
~mike