The Real Vlog 2.

Vlog 2

This is what happens when I have too much coffee and too much time on my hands.

Christmas Cards

I was going to send out Christmas cards but I did not feel like spent a lot of money I do not have. If you still would like a bad grammar card, leave a comment or call my phone number that I have. Also was remember to "Mind the Gap, Please".

Cheers mate
~mike

It is CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I know it is 6hrs early in England and 12 hrs early in the States (CST Zone). I heard a song and I think I will post the lyrics. To goes like:

It's Christmas Time and time to celebrate
It's time to take a look at Jesus Birth
and seek his righteousness.

Ok not really but I think it will be a big hit

The song I was using is It's Christmas Time by the Carpenters

It's Christmas time and time for a carol
Time to sing about the little King
To fill the bowl and roll out the BARREL
Have ourselves a fling

Anyways:

MERRY

CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

Helping Family is always nice.

As I start to get ready for my Christmas work week. I was staying up to get ready for my 12 hrs shift today (Saturday), it starts at 1700. I was working on some homework when my cousin need to ask me a question about a situation she was in. We later went in to our family. I guess we take our family for granted (well some might not). I look at the fact that I was never really close, and still not that close. We talked about how my cousin parents were asking questions my cousin could not answer. I look at what I caused my family when I was a young dumb boy that beat his sister. I am talking abusing my sister and now I living. I do not hit my sister anymore because I live across the world and only see her about a week a year. That is still to much to see here. The challenge for me is that the way I now live is different and my parents do not see it. I changed a lot from high school and my parents see that. They fail to see that I have grown in Christ because that have a wrapped view of Christ. To me, they seem to believe that works saves. I can understand that from my mom because was raised Roman Catholic and they believe that work saves. My dad is harder because is protestant up-raising. I guess if you are taught wrong then you will be wrong. I wanted to go to their Sunday School and failed but what they studied concerned me greatly when I was home last. My mom told me it was about Bible Contradictions and then they told me that I would be able to hold my own against the teacher. I would like to think differently, the teacher might be able to change peoples mind but hopefully I speak the truth and and change his mind to align with Christ's mind. I might have to talk to my parent about what they are learning now in Sunday School.

My Vlog

Trying something new.

Listen to the Music

So a couple of weeks ago I went to the Saint Edmundsbury Cathedral for a performance of Handel's Messiah. It was wonderful to listen to the words of a great piece. The song I am listening as I write says, "For unto us a Child is born, unto us a Son is given, and the government shall be upon His shoulder; and his name shall be called Wonderful,
Counsellor, the Mighty God, the Everlasting Father, the Prince of Peace." What wonderfully lyrics to sing. The lyrics are from Isaiah 9:6. I notice listen that I get carried away with the lyrics, melody, and also the connection between parts. The Messiah is about the feeling that comes from what is read in the Word. I am not saying that we should worship but instead how music can tell us the feelings. This song really hits it hard. Handel uses different verses from the KJV of the Bible to write a song.

I will finish later b/c of work. Look for another post in about 12hrs.

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Now playing: The London Philharmonic Orchestra & Choir & Walter Susskind - Messiah, oratorio, HWV 56: For Unto Us a Child Is Born
via FoxyTunes

Thanks to all.

I want to thank all of you who commented. When I was writing that post, I really thought that no one read my blog. I was wrong. That night after I posted, I prayed to God to help me. I felt like God was to far away and then I read a little in Matthew and Acts. Then yesterday (Sunday), I was going to hit the bathroom up and I get a call from Kyle. We talk for over 3hrs. That is when I was told about all the comments. Thanks It has been hard here in England. The fact that lust is a major issue here. That is must be why the KJV of the Bible says to not touch a women and every other version says sexual immorality. Ok, that was a bad joke. I guess this proves that God answers prayers. Again, thanks to all.


In GOD We Trust

~mike

Realization that I am not the person I claim to be

It is hard to live a small room hold a job that requires to give up so much of your day to a clause that most people do not care about. I like doing my job but my life is no where close to being happy. I was watching a show on Myspace and it is about 6 people that live next to each other. There are 3 males and females. From what I have watched, it is about one female and her adventure in life as see documents it on a video web log. I listen to what see says and it reminds me so much of myself. She tackles the point with out saying it, that we put up images and masks to show what we want people to believe. All this fake life stuff. I look at myself and I see the same thing. I try to not cuss or lust or murder but it happens. I try to look holy but yet I am not better then the Pharisees of the Bible. I still have to much of a problem with porn and hatred. I murder people everyday. I say the wrongs things, I do the wrong things and my life is running away from me. That fakness is killing the inside but I can look to the Lord for help. I know he can help but I feel like he has thrown me away from the vine and burned me. I use 1 John 2:6 a lot but my life does not compare to what I say or do. I do not care about other people on myself. That might be the problem, wait that is the problem. I start conversations to tell people about what I want to talk about so I can show that I am better then they are. It never works and it never will. I lie to people when they ask how I am. I say I am fine but really I am just as bad as they are. Well, at least they have some sort of pleasure.

Another thing I am trying to deal with, is that I hold on the past. I have been a RAF Mildenhall for over 6 months and I still talk about Tinker and how it was not a dream crew chief job. I NO LONGER WORK AT TINKER. Then I got this shrine up in the room. It is more of a god than anything else reminding that I should have never left a good thing. This, right now, compares to about what I felt like when I would never see my friends from Oklahoma everyday. There was joy in my life, except at work. But, I was not stick in a room with 4 white walls with nothing in it except of how good I had it in Oklahoma. I said I would never like Oklahoma but it was the closes thing I had to a family in my life. The memories. Oh, the memories. My real family and I were never together except when we eat together. I grow away from them. They did not know what I was going through or what I needed. Out of all of high school, the sophomore year was the best. I actually had people to hang out with. Next fall, that would all change. I never felt better until Oklahoma. I look at my life and I see how I am not the same person and i realize that we all feel that way without Christ. Just showing that I do not have Christ in me. I never did. It was the devil playing a trick on everyone I know who was in Christ. I learn to I could push people away. The devil's masterpiece at work through me. I do not want to be that guy, that person that pushes people away. I too have pushed myself away and God knew it was going to happen and he let it happen. He gave the chances to do it and I push them away too. I push everyone away. That is why I do not get calls or I am on IM all night talking to people. I have pushed them away from me and they want no part of me. They never cared about but I never cared about them first. I see that I was the loser, I was the one that hurt my social life. This is why I do not have a problem with the act of sex but porn. I never had a girlfriend to get tempted by. I never was brave enough to talk to a female face-to-face. I was also not brave enough to witness or ask people to the Bible study. I fear man and not God. So again I was never in Christ. It was not Joe's or Matt's or Mike's or Tyler's fault. I fell away from God! It was my own doing! That is why I feel all alone in room with white walls. That is why I am up at 0315 hrs on a Friday night all alone. It is my fault that I acted like a Christian in high school and that act continues today. The problem here is I am trying to be holy. That is I am trying to be holy. I am not allowing Christ to make me holy. All these problems come to one thing. That is I am not letting God control my life. I am living my own life claiming to live a life with God. God is so far from my life that if I would die tonight (this is not saying that I am going to commit suicide), I would not go to heaven but to hell. I have no works in Him who can save me. I have lead no one to Christ and the immediate future looks dim to. I live in the darkness. I claim to be in the light but I LIE and the truth is not in me. I am died in this world. I am died in this lost world like everyone else that does not know Christ. So I guess says that I do not know Christ also. So I have fallen away from the one who saves me.

This is true as it gets about my life and that is what this blog is for. To talk about the challenges of my life. Here it is, the all the ammo you need to hurt me. Take it and use it.

A new computer in town.

So here it is, the most dreaded thing to happen in the life of my dorm room. The Little Army Dude has yet to let someone touch that AWACS but he did not fix my laptop. That is right the laptop has died, finally. It was a long and painful road but in the end Joy was the main feeling. I my computer is for better and will not be slow like windows is. I HATE MS WINDOWS. So my new laptop is a Mac. That is right, I went to the good side of computers with a more power computer in Macs. Have to love Macs. That is all I have to say about the new computer in my life. LAter


~mike saw a sign, it opened up my mind that sign. it said "OPEN"

Its Christmas Time and Time for changing my room

So, we all know that is it Christmas time. So I had to decorate my room for the season. So here is a little story about the little Airmen that protects my room. He is not a big Airmen but mighty.







He usually protects my model AWACS and soon he will also protect my KC-135R.







But now he has an more important task. TO PROTECT MY CHRISTMAS DECORATION.




So this is all my Christmas decorations b/c the BXtra did not have any more lights and I am to cheap to buy some off base. (I LIVE IN ENGLAND. I PAY 2.14x MORE)

God Bless and Later Gator

~mike is out